Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Saarang 2007 - Powerchords and Decibel..

So last weekend was my FIRST ever powerchord and decibel.. Ive gone for small time battle of bands at the unwind before, but this was Saarang.. the bands are bigger, better and larger in number..

And as usual.. i was nervous.. before every gig my hands freeze like a dead man and i could feel butterflies running in my stomach..

So 27th January.. there i was riding on my bike.. taking slow deep breaths and riding towards Ascendas.. (i was going with t and n)

I walked inside the food court after parking my bike and i saw 2 smiling faces.. i walked upto them.. and i saw a piece of chocolate brownie covered in chocolate sause..

T said.. Happy birthday.. We couldnt find a cake..

And N rubbed some chocolate sause on my hand..

After stuffing it all down in 2-3 gulps we rode our bikes and made our way to the IIT campus..

N insisted on walking all the way instead of taking the bus.. It was a nice 2km walk considering i had flesh and blood real life Laurel and Hardy.. (much COOLER versions) :p tripping on each other..

The trechourous straight road trek was worth it.. we neared bindaas park and we could hear the thomp thomp thomp of music.. :) our heartbreats raced.. we stopped walking and started jogging a little..

And after that time and space and everything else was a blur.. the music took control.. And like all battle of bands.. There were some good ones and some awful ones..

My favourite band anyway was the "tease" band.. The drummer wore a Ramco cement t-shirt, the vocalist spoke gibberish into the mike.. My friend mentioned.. "Oh cool.. A goan band.." But the minute the words were out of his mouth we heard him say "nakshatrangal" :p and thats when we smelt the fish..

After they finished their 20 minute "performance" the vocalist/lead guitarist ran off stage like his ass had caught fire.. What stage presence i thought.. :p

In a nutshell last weekend was 48 hours of Ultraviolent rays, friends, smokes and very bad tanning.. I wish i could re-live it all.. :)

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Goodbye my lover..

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

All hail James Blunt.. i could'nt have said it better.. Change is the constant of life.. people play different roles in our lives.. and i never wanted his role to end in mine.. i didnt dream of it in my wildest dreams.. this was IT, i thought, the real deal..

Stings.. stings like mad.. ive been through heartbreaks before.. ive moved on and healed.. but this time it feels different.. my life seems to have come to a standstill.. moving on is a far dream..

I generally use the HATE therapy to get over people.. but there are no bitter memories or nasty experiences i can think of.. you didnt hurt me in anyway..

On the contrary you handled all my mood swings extremely well and knew me inside out.. all my fears, my hopes, my deep dark secrets.. A slight tremble in my tone of voice and you'd know something was not right..

Would i be able to face the world without your wise voice running through my head..? Without the sound of your laughter ringing in my ears..?

Hopefully with some reserves of strength in my veins i shall move on with my life and smile someday.. but as of now, this very moment.. my wasted heart shall love you and i will wonder where you are and what you're doing right now and whether your heart is crushed to tiny bits like mine..

Be happy wherever you are boy.. it was an honour just knowing you.. take care.. God bless..