Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Goodbye my lover..

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

All hail James Blunt.. i could'nt have said it better.. Change is the constant of life.. people play different roles in our lives.. and i never wanted his role to end in mine.. i didnt dream of it in my wildest dreams.. this was IT, i thought, the real deal..

Stings.. stings like mad.. ive been through heartbreaks before.. ive moved on and healed.. but this time it feels different.. my life seems to have come to a standstill.. moving on is a far dream..

I generally use the HATE therapy to get over people.. but there are no bitter memories or nasty experiences i can think of.. you didnt hurt me in anyway..

On the contrary you handled all my mood swings extremely well and knew me inside out.. all my fears, my hopes, my deep dark secrets.. A slight tremble in my tone of voice and you'd know something was not right..

Would i be able to face the world without your wise voice running through my head..? Without the sound of your laughter ringing in my ears..?

Hopefully with some reserves of strength in my veins i shall move on with my life and smile someday.. but as of now, this very moment.. my wasted heart shall love you and i will wonder where you are and what you're doing right now and whether your heart is crushed to tiny bits like mine..

Be happy wherever you are boy.. it was an honour just knowing you.. take care.. God bless..

3 comments:

Nishanth said...

Your thoughts are getting stronger day by day. Keep up the good work. :)

BTW, your peom, "My King", is awesome!

JollyRoger said...

Hey, i dont want to give you my sympathies, because everything happens for good. But as someone who has been through this, I can empathise with you. When I read your earlier posts, I wished you the very best in life, for I thought you had found the one, and I still wish you the same.

I believe that people come into our lives for a reason or a season or a lifetime. Pray that God may send you the person for a lifetime soon.

Anonymous said...

hi fatso,
finally decided to comment on the poem. i never thought u had so many feelings burried deep within u. i suggest u to write a book yaar. i m serious about tat. think of a nice story n start ur good work very soon. it was awesome.
gud luck