Tuesday, July 03, 2007

The Downs..


It's been 7 months and passing
The rawness of pain has been replaced by a numbness of acceptance..
The acceptance, of a cold reality.

Where did we go wrong? Where did I go wrong?
How could you walk away from it all?
Was i living in a web of lies, spun so perfectly by a master craftsman?

I want to hate you. I want to hate you with all my heart..
But i can't bring myself to feel anything, but respect for you.
I fell in love with you, long before i'd seen your face
I heard your voice filling my senses, much before i ever spoke to you
You were all that i needed, all that i wanted..
My world was YOU.

I miss you, would be saying too little.
You took away from me, my best friend, my teacher, my love, my better half.
You left behind a flesh and blood body with a scarred empty soul.

And then there was a solitary tear which rolled down my cheek..
I cried. I cried with all my heart and soul. Angered by the injustice of it all.
I do not deserve this.. I do not deserve this.
I want to forget. I want to let go.

4 comments:

JollyRoger said...

Hi,
It is almost impossible to forget the first love and I know it. But now that you have let go of it, dont cry over it. It is not worth your tears.

Remember people leave from your heart to make room for someone better, often the best.

Our best wishes to you that you may find the best soon. (Thanks for your comments on her wedding blog earlier, ours was a tough love story!)

blaZinG_DraGoOnuS said...

no one deserves any of that dearie ... i know what u mean ... the scars still remain they never tend to go away ... but the power to let go is WITHIN you, be strong and go on .... life's too sshort ....

chronicwriter said...

organise your thoughts. you will be free. let not the memories kill your present and future...

Dave said...

By gosh... Is that all true Yeah yeah.. listen to the blazin dragons..